Musings

Hmmm, the next few days will be full of plenty of musings from myself as 2009 comes to a close and 2010 begins. It's definitely time for me to make a change in EVERYTHING: eating, exercise, school, organization, keeping in touch with friends..

I'm definitely not one to make New Year's resolutions. I think the term is overused and there are too many people out there that make these "resolutions", stick to them for part of January, and ditch the thought completely. Sooooo, I've decided to make my GOALS for 2010. hah. Let's start with a few.

I want to blog once a day. I'm a note writer. I am constantly jotting down lists of things I need to do, or random thoughts, then I lose the list and just give up on the tasks to-do altogether. I constantly have things going on in my head and I feel like if I write something down in a blog and have some sort of an outlet it will help me stay more organized in my thinking. And everyone I know can tell you.. I'M NOT ORGANIZED. Which brings me to my next goal...

STAY ORGANIZED. or attempt to. Part of the reason I procrastinate so much is because I'm not organized. I use my mess as an excuse. For example, the night before I'll have a fantastic plan to go the the gym. Sitting in bed that night I'll pretty much be brainstorming ways to get out of going to the gym. Finally I'll conclude: "I didn't wash my gym clothes yet, looks like I can't go." Lame. But I do it all the time.

Just a few. With many more to come.

The Beginning

A little history:
I was a gymnast for 12 years and watching what/how never even crossed my mind. I never even worked out outside of practice. Upon entering college I quit gymnastics and it all caught up with me. Over six months, let's add 25 pounds to my life.

I stumbled upon the Fitnessista's blog a month or two ago and fell in LOVE. Up until I found her blog I was on a mission to lose 25 pounds. After reading her blog (and almost ever past post!), my mind has morphed from wanting to lose weight and see a lower number to feeling good, being happy and liking how I look in the mirror. The number no longer matters to me. I want to eat right and exercise to feel better and change my appearance because I am not happy about the way I look. I know that losing pounds is not a measure of my success.

I created this blog for myself to track my success (hopefully). My goal in the 'end' is to not be addicted to processed foods. I want to increase my knowledge on healthy fats, good cards and lean proteins. It will be a slow transition. I currently eat fast food often and am used to just throwing together quick, terrible for you frozen meals. I've tried to just make a switch over night to healthier eating which just causes me to eat even more in the end. I was depriving myself. I know this transition will take a long time.

I just want to like how I look. Going from having my 'gymnast body' to now honestly just sucks. I'm a poor college student so I haven't bought any new clothes and I squeeze myself into the same size shirts and jeans which makes me feel even worse about myself. I miss liking my body.

I guess you could say I'm making my new year's resolution early!

So to kick off my first post:

Breakfast (at 11:30? slept in =] ) was a banana with peanut butter.

Lunch (4:30) was a big salad with chicken, iceburg lettuce (all we have =[ ), carrots, chopped nuts, an apple and balsamic. Something was just off in that one. I prepped some things for tomorrow's big lunch salad.

Dinner (8:00) was two pieces of stuffed crust cheese pizza. But it was sooooooo good. ha.

Did I mention I hate vegetables? There aren't many veggies I like, which is going to make this so much harder. There has to be a easy way to get myself used to new foods.